Ugh, reality hit me today. As paperwork swarms my thoughts, I can't help but let the ideas of defeat enter my head. I am a person who thinks I need to have control, and know what's going on at all times. During this journey, I daily have to turn this over to my Lord as I have no control over any of it. Faith, ah this is a process of faith. Dependence, is what I am learning right now, total dependence on Him. This verse is speaking to me loudly.
30 “(A)I can do nothing on My own initiative. As I hear, I judge; and (B)My judgment is just, because I do not seek My own will, but (C)the will of Him who sent Me.
I'm getting it, utter, total, complete dependence on God. A work in progress, that's what I am.