Monday, October 10, 2011
In His Hands
I can't help it but my heart is pounding at the thought that we are not going to have all of our paperwork in before November. What this means is we have to wait longer before we get to Nellie. I can't help but think what could I have done to make this process go faster, because each day is a day that she is not here. So in my mind I think well maybe I should have worked harder. Then I sit back and say wait a second she will be here at the exact moment she is supposed to be. And in the meantime, I spend all my time on my knees praying. I know that this whole idea of bringing home another child isn't only about saving her it is about growing me. I have already seen the Lord work thinks out for this to happen. Each time a bump in the road is hurtled in front of me I freak out, but that is my human nature. He is faithful, and I keep telling myself it isn't about what I can get done quicker because honestly it isn't in my hands to make it happen, it is in His. So, I will sit in His hands and spend time growing closer to Him while I wait for this precious gift that He is bringing home to me. So, I take each day as it comes and enjoy my boys because the Lord has blessed me with them also.